I had woke up in the world asleep
The lonely reside outside
This and that has left me
Bliss and joy whispered this is peace
Find what you were looking for while the world sleeps
It had arrived, the end of the search.
The journey still proceeding but without the need to fill a void.
Instead it had promise and fruitfulness which would lead to the self fulfillment and attainment.
To always stay with youth and growth.
The knowledge to over stand that all things will prevail and reveal as the journey deepens and the steps are walked.
This release of the search had been compromised by the truth, to stop looking and to receive within the moment what is destined, even if the eyes have not realized.
The idea came to pass that if what you can’t determine from the inner self, can’t be believed, than the eyes won’t face it’s ultimate truth.
Which means creation will be forfeited.
The truth is to breath and take in the promise of ever lasting all knowing knowledge, self sought from the inner life force.
The appliance to this is to realize the opposing energy outside of the one true self i.e. the inner ‘I am’.
Have you not come to hear and believe the most high language.
Have you no disregard for all things depicted from another’s tongue.
Have your ears not been disguised by the tongue of an outsiders visions, the truth be it not.
The truth is valuable and can not come from another perception or it be deceptive.
Deceive and mislead the aid to the whole, if you have put aside the one ‘I am’ what have you heard from the source.
What has been bestowed upon you to say such things and acts of such unworthiness from the inner ‘I am’.
Why should you listen to hearsay with little to No Know-ledge. Have you not seen destruction from the pass on of a hear saying, they can not be creditable.
All true masters have known the truth, for the inner ‘I am’.
No one could hear or speak it for them, this is known of you too.
All is creation all is in reflection, no man shall bear a mighty over another, for if you do you have lost your kingdom, that will be the suffering, but stay lost, by free will.
That is and will always be the present there is nothing to blame for an untrue heart, and you follow with insincere intentions, only to make sure you enter a kingdom.
You have never mind your true and only kingdom, the kingdom within, that is where your milk and honey will reside, your own hands can not hide from you.
You only want to be sure, even without I true trusting heart.
How can you raise someone outside of yourself, outside the self.
I told you ‘I am’ all, but you have heard from another man.
So you have been confused of the language.
Hear for yourself, first hand knowledge is the only fact.
But what will you risk, will you give it all up, all of what you heard and quiet your chatter and your judgment.
There is heed in everything, judge not or you shall be judged, you have the power, you can only make that true.
You choose what you believe and what you call a lie.
Will you start from scratch and journey life without false indications.
Say not than you have only lost-ness and emptiness, and the search will always reside in your mind and you cannot lose of the mind, it has no permanent body or house it stays the make up of your soul.
What serves you to listen to anothers sermon, you have not earned the trust and light of your only life.
Your life is precious but you can’t see what you don’t over stand.
You have been, In – Formed and the formatting have lead all sheep down heel.
I desired ‘To Be‘. The simplicity of that truth was far too complicated to inject into the World, at first. “To Be“, (I think) most would assume ‘what, and who’ are you ‘To Be’ or where are you (To Be). I would think just ‘To be‘, just to exist in truth and joy, love and freedom, expression and experience. That response would be arbitrary to the over worked conditioned mind. It (the mind) had to build walls and caution tapes to inquire danger ahead, ‘don’t cross’, ‘do not enter’. This is a danger zone it (the mind) would like to badger. In this real time moment I realized that the mind is natural and fear is the intruder. So I distinguished the culprit apart from the truth, it is not the mind that prevent these thoughts that despoils the desire (To Be) but fear. Fear, (I think) a smirk lies to the face of these over standings and initiates the relationship to bond with such an intrusive con. It is fear, the fear of being afraid of that which itself is. I am to great to sit with fear (I am thinking), but why not give fear a chance, why not see what all the fuss is about, why avoid this part of the untruth. Fear is tricky, tricky, (I smile). Its like sitting down and having tea with that someone that you quite don’t understand, that causes discomfort to you in any form, rather it be a friend or a family member a coworker or employer. It always feels good when you face off with that in which you just don’t get along with. The point in that sit down would be to sort out what causes friction and negativity to say that it deserves peace. Regardless if the relationship needs to persist or if it needs to be without, the goal is peace either way. It brings strength and courage. That is what fear is afraid of, the break up from the mind and connection with the spirit, proclaiming freedom to the soul. ‘To Be’ just to exist in ultimate joy, wealth, and health by birthright maybe undeserving to fear but it deserves peace of the mind. Have a sit down with fear and send it on its way with peace and over standing with what needs ‘To Be’ understood. And just ‘Be’.
Come in peace, But be ready for war. There is a war going on inside.
I want to talk about Me, I find an extreme meaning to My creation and the divine’ness in which I am made of. I have known that we are all in reflection of another, therefore I believe the same of You. Through your eyes I am seen and likewise. So I would like to share the wonderfulness in you also. My individual awareness is what helps me to reflect the best image of who I am upon the world which indeed is also my truest reflection. I have discovered many aspects of my characterized self, rather self knowingly for a good purpose and at times in the past unknowingly in a lost destructive space. I believe in the natural cause and effect of creation. Therefore I understand that my name, age, Birth date, day, and time I manifested into this world matters to the sacred make up of Me, connecting the entirety of All things. Also this is the same for you, and every creation known and unknown. I would like to share these overwhelmingly divine connections of me to you. I was born to the name pronounced Shay- Na Holiday. My first name in Hebrew means beautiful/pretty ( Shana Punim is a saying that means pretty face). What is within shall be without. My last name Holiday is translated to its origin Holy-day. My name has a deeper meaning than superficial beauty but to me it means a deeper beauty, non fleeting that resonates from within, also my last name is specified for spiritual observance. In this moment My age is 29, the number 2 brings attributes of duality, faith, trust, and selflessness with encouragement and diplomacy, personal will, balance, and harmony. The number 9 represents Universal spiritual laws, karma, humanitarianism and philanthropy, light working, spiritual awakening and enlightenment. The 9 also relates to conclusions and endings, these energies of 29 brings fourth polarity, emotions, judgment, coupled with leadership, integrity and unity. My birth date is 08/16 (August 16) in which reflects the numbers of the Golden Ratio also described by some as the divine code which is 1.168. The Golden Ratio in short words is the divine proportion, it is said to be the make up of all things from nature, planets, to art and music. I have deeper knowledge on most of these things than I will explain in this moment.
I have delved into numerology and I also search for the relation and connection within the things that are around me. So what I am proposing is for everyone to discover their self and connections within our universe, you will be pleased with just how amazing you are. The numbers that surround us is the language of the greater creation.
And the Door Opened. I had been searching and within real time clarity was bestowed upon me. ‘The Act’ it gently whispered, and without hesitation my inner self had over stood the simplicity in the meaning of ‘The Act’. Searching and seeking, questioning and answering had lead me to a place of disease (Dis-ease), discomfort within the mind and body which came to show it’s existence through worry, and dissatisfaction. I am without doubt that what I am, is in discord with what I had chose to believe and focus on. I planted away from truth and lead down a path of reasoning and analyze. These things lead to Part – Truth which in fact Part – Truth is a Full – Lie. I had begun to base my journey on solid thought and foundation. I hadn’t then understood what was meant to be
overstood. I left out the intangible Most High aspect of who I am, focusing on reason and analytics response betrayed me to the fullness of my quantity and quality. I have no space and time but instead real time and that present is within the present. The existing of what is the ultimate experience has been altered to face what is not. I had been protected from my examined ego by my purest intention and desire. What is not ‘has to be‘, in order to experience that which is. I have Now defined clarity within relationships of the ultimate truth. Its Polarity, It is Duality, It is Yin and Yang, Good and Bad, these energies serves each other for the Universal goal. We only need to experience the opposite to gain full knowledge of the truth. Where there is lack of ’Something’ there is chance to experience abundance. There can be a diamond in the ruff, or a flower growing up out of the concrete, just as grace can fall and truth will bask in glory. The Vice Versa is the harmony of life, a reflection of being. With the sacredness of the lotus flower the Door Opened.
By Shayna Punim
When I Grow Up is a phrase that has stuck with me. I guess it seems growing is the extension to forever, forever growing. I have come to the conclusion I will be forever young stuck in the mind of youthful contentment. Fixated on the thought to be wise but to not get wrinkled. I mean what is an Adult, is it a person that has decided to be stuck and tormented within old habits and ways of existing. Or is it the sad notion to have had experienced all there is that the world has to offer. Hm, that seems frightening to me, I desire to be bright eyed lost at sea with no idea of time or formality. I have always secretly chuckled at the idea of the Toys “R” Us commercial “I don’t wanna grow up”. It seemed to be true, who wants to grow old anyway. Living the life of age is daunting, forgetting to bring out the cake is better than leaving behind the extra 10 candles. Pour a glass, turn up the music and eat cupcakes, realize your birth every moment you have changed an internal aspect of your life. That is the true art of growing, it is the fountain of youth, it is continuously eternal. It is the gateway to experience your dream of being a Ballerina, although It is mine. The many fantasies that imprint your mind…
I have sat here before, the feeling of what is has already been. “The light shining exactly and the mess of the desk like it was“, as if this had been before. The feeling of being lost in time and space where all things are just memories and nothing is solid. Elusive, as in dreaming and reality is lost. Within some altered world not your accustomed solid foundation. This has me thinking of everything and almost believing nothing of what I thought I knew. The lost’ness of time seems so captivating to the mind. I begin to think grand thoughts as if I had questioned every answer back to a question and nothing makes sense if you really dig deep. Somewhere down that rabbit hole you realize that there is no end, no bottom. It appears to be this black hole that extends deeper within the more you seek. The thought of this lost space and time would be blamed on polarity or duality but I have come to examine what makes energy if all there is ‘is just that’. Where is the beginning why does it never end and maybe I should just focus on the occurrences rather than logic explanations. But what happens exactly at the point when you begin to feel that your life has already been played, I mean not your complete life but certain moments. Why those moments and not the other what does this mean.? I wreck my mind with these thoughts, not in away to where it brings stress but in a sense that my mind is blooming like a flower, the blossoming of originality. I realize my purpose beyond description and I am safe and satisfied in that.. It makes me feel important on such a grand scale, that my life and existence is intensified too the point of No beginning. This makes me feel closer to what some call God, regardless the visual concept or understanding we as humans take God to be or weather believe in no God. That (god) word is just a word it is the energy and Creation which is the Divine whole. Therefore we can all agree that our lives are beautiful and purposeful beyond description. This all started like it happened already.
Now the constant chattering of the mind is lost of contentment. The desire to want something so anxiously, beauty, love, wealth, adventure, companionship, friendships, loyalty, truth, and all life’s finest experiences is where bliss resides. Way down under your rib cage beneath layers of your inner ambitions the journey down that road seems a bit long. Languishing bright eyed to reach these euphoric spaces of peace to dwell In all that is desired with in the self. To bring to fruition everything that you want. Hungry to taste that of what is pleasing to your deepest thoughts and sub conscious self. Like a damsel in distress searching through your reality to encounter a savory taste of what you imagine your *Something * to be. The motive is self fulfillment, you can’t be content believing in all the
minusculties of the world. Less is more, they want you to believe, less just feels like *has nots* and *don’t haves*. I want it all, you think in your head, picturing your child self yelling it loudly with arms folded, and puckered bottom lip. You’re a brat, with your idea of your *Something* the luxuries of what you think will bring joy. I want to experience it all now ‘RIGHT NOW’ . Your theorization that paints these colossal visions, placing beautiful constructed mental furniture through out your inner mind is vibrating. You have become filled with your truth so much it becomes your philosophy to live. You have realized the potential of your desire, the point of creation and manifestation is within your inner mind. It fills the self so much so that you have reached the point of your *Something*. You have believed so deeply and truly in your own ideals and truths, not swaying from your mental imagery of desire. You have replaced your outside furniture with what has resonated from the depths of the mind and that *Something* beauty, love, wealth, adventure, companionship, friendships, loyalty, and truth has found its way to your reality with all life’s finest experiences right where bliss resides. This started with a blank canvas to create a personal desire, truth, and fulfillment. Never mind the Worlds view this is ‘The Art of Nothingness‘.