I had woke up in the world asleep
The lonely reside outside
This and that has left me
Bliss and joy whispered this is peace
Find what you were looking for while the world sleeps
I want to talk about Me, I find an extreme meaning to My creation and the divine’ness in which I am made of. I have known that we are all in reflection of another, therefore I believe the same of You. Through your eyes I am seen and likewise. So I would like to share the wonderfulness in you also. My individual awareness is what helps me to reflect the best image of who I am upon the world which indeed is also my truest reflection. I have discovered many aspects of my characterized self, rather self knowingly for a good purpose and at times in the past unknowingly in a lost destructive space. I believe in the natural cause and effect of creation. Therefore I understand that my name, age, Birth date, day, and time I manifested into this world matters to the sacred make up of Me, connecting the entirety of All things. Also this is the same for you, and every creation known and unknown. I would like to share these overwhelmingly divine connections of me to you. I was born to the name pronounced Shay- Na Holiday. My first name in Hebrew means beautiful/pretty ( Shana Punim is a saying that means pretty face). What is within shall be without. My last name Holiday is translated to its origin Holy-day. My name has a deeper meaning than superficial beauty but to me it means a deeper beauty, non fleeting that resonates from within, also my last name is specified for spiritual observance. In this moment My age is 29, the number 2 brings attributes of duality, faith, trust, and selflessness with encouragement and diplomacy, personal will, balance, and harmony. The number 9 represents Universal spiritual laws, karma, humanitarianism and philanthropy, light working, spiritual awakening and enlightenment. The 9 also relates to conclusions and endings, these energies of 29 brings fourth polarity, emotions, judgment, coupled with leadership, integrity and unity. My birth date is 08/16 (August 16) in which reflects the numbers of the Golden Ratio also described by some as the divine code which is 1.168. The Golden Ratio in short words is the divine proportion, it is said to be the make up of all things from nature, planets, to art and music. I have deeper knowledge on most of these things than I will explain in this moment.
I have delved into numerology and I also search for the relation and connection within the things that are around me. So what I am proposing is for everyone to discover their self and connections within our universe, you will be pleased with just how amazing you are. The numbers that surround us is the language of the greater creation.
I have sat here before, the feeling of what is has already been. “The light shining exactly and the mess of the desk like it was“, as if this had been before. The feeling of being lost in time and space where all things are just memories and nothing is solid. Elusive, as in dreaming and reality is lost. Within some altered world not your accustomed solid foundation. This has me thinking of everything and almost believing nothing of what I thought I knew. The lost’ness of time seems so captivating to the mind. I begin to think grand thoughts as if I had questioned every answer back to a question and nothing makes sense if you really dig deep. Somewhere down that rabbit hole you realize that there is no end, no bottom. It appears to be this black hole that extends deeper within the more you seek. The thought of this lost space and time would be blamed on polarity or duality but I have come to examine what makes energy if all there is ‘is just that’. Where is the beginning why does it never end and maybe I should just focus on the occurrences rather than logic explanations. But what happens exactly at the point when you begin to feel that your life has already been played, I mean not your complete life but certain moments. Why those moments and not the other what does this mean.? I wreck my mind with these thoughts, not in away to where it brings stress but in a sense that my mind is blooming like a flower, the blossoming of originality. I realize my purpose beyond description and I am safe and satisfied in that.. It makes me feel important on such a grand scale, that my life and existence is intensified too the point of No beginning. This makes me feel closer to what some call God, regardless the visual concept or understanding we as humans take God to be or weather believe in no God. That (god) word is just a word it is the energy and Creation which is the Divine whole. Therefore we can all agree that our lives are beautiful and purposeful beyond description. This all started like it happened already.
Now the constant chattering of the mind is lost of contentment. The desire to want something so anxiously, beauty, love, wealth, adventure, companionship, friendships, loyalty, truth, and all life’s finest experiences is where bliss resides. Way down under your rib cage beneath layers of your inner ambitions the journey down that road seems a bit long. Languishing bright eyed to reach these euphoric spaces of peace to dwell In all that is desired with in the self. To bring to fruition everything that you want. Hungry to taste that of what is pleasing to your deepest thoughts and sub conscious self. Like a damsel in distress searching through your reality to encounter a savory taste of what you imagine your *Something * to be. The motive is self fulfillment, you can’t be content believing in all the
minusculties of the world. Less is more, they want you to believe, less just feels like *has nots* and *don’t haves*. I want it all, you think in your head, picturing your child self yelling it loudly with arms folded, and puckered bottom lip. You’re a brat, with your idea of your *Something* the luxuries of what you think will bring joy. I want to experience it all now ‘RIGHT NOW’ . Your theorization that paints these colossal visions, placing beautiful constructed mental furniture through out your inner mind is vibrating. You have become filled with your truth so much it becomes your philosophy to live. You have realized the potential of your desire, the point of creation and manifestation is within your inner mind. It fills the self so much so that you have reached the point of your *Something*. You have believed so deeply and truly in your own ideals and truths, not swaying from your mental imagery of desire. You have replaced your outside furniture with what has resonated from the depths of the mind and that *Something* beauty, love, wealth, adventure, companionship, friendships, loyalty, and truth has found its way to your reality with all life’s finest experiences right where bliss resides. This started with a blank canvas to create a personal desire, truth, and fulfillment. Never mind the Worlds view this is ‘The Art of Nothingness‘.