I desired ‘To Be‘. The simplicity of that truth was far too complicated to inject into the World, at first. “To Be“, (I think) most would assume ‘what, and who’ are you ‘To Be’ or where are you (To Be). I would think just ‘To be‘, just to exist in truth and joy, love and freedom, expression and experience. That response would be arbitrary to the over worked conditioned mind. It (the mind) had to build walls and caution tapes to inquire danger ahead, ‘don’t cross’, ‘do not enter’. This is a danger zone it (the mind) would like to badger. In this real time moment I realized that the mind is natural and fear is the intruder. So I distinguished the culprit apart from the truth, it is not the mind that prevent these thoughts that despoils the desire (To Be) but fear. Fear, (I think) a smirk lies to the face of these over standings and initiates the relationship to bond with such an intrusive con. It is fear, the fear of being afraid of that which itself is. I am to great to sit with fear (I am thinking), but why not give fear a chance, why not see what all the fuss is about, why avoid this part of the untruth. Fear is tricky, tricky, (I smile). Its like sitting down and having tea with that someone that you quite don’t understand, that causes discomfort to you in any form, rather it be a friend or a family member a coworker or employer. It always feels good when you face off with that in which you just don’t get along with. The point in that sit down would be to sort out what causes friction and negativity to say that it deserves peace. Regardless if the relationship needs to persist or if it needs to be without, the goal is peace either way. It brings strength and courage. That is what fear is afraid of, the break up from the mind and connection with the spirit, proclaiming freedom to the soul. ‘To Be’ just to exist in ultimate joy, wealth, and health by birthright maybe undeserving to fear but it deserves peace of the mind. Have a sit down with fear and send it on its way with peace and over standing with what needs ‘To Be’ understood. And just ‘Be’.
The sophisticated women in me sits somewhere between the childish bliss of freedom, imaginary visions of sitting on the moon within the stars and the reality of a over worked, over stressed, conditioned one way mind world. Within that realm of existence is where I drift, not aimlessly but with intention and ability to redefine what society has build as the norm, the life. I have wondered for some time about the master mind behind these self oppressing, spirit smothering constructions that have been programmed for decades imprinting the mind with dysfunction. Its like I am in the mist of this bright land with black and white zombies roaming soullessly, trying to get to the end of the dreadful uphill battle of completion. I remember being a child and wondering how can a Person get up every day at the same time, work at the same place, drive down the same road, in the same state, eat at the same restaurants, and accompany the same friends until. It is something beyond unnatural about that robotic structure. I have found that I never fell in line with the routine which made me look outward towards a more individualized adventure in which I presume to be life. Thus far I have sacrificed and took risk to do things unorthodox, I have done that which livens my soul. I have lived free to my highest ideals with the circumstances that accompany me. I wish to be more alive still. I think the other way (their way) whom ever they maybe, serves this world not for the greater experience but for a easily controlled programmed existence. The altering of the natural self, has been sacrificed and compromised. People have been made inorganically just like the food industry with cloned over processed chickens being mass produced to be the same weight, like no matter what brand of chicken you buy no matter the label, it comes from the same source (that’s another issue to be discussed). Spiritual beings are natural, (People) have been made, and they are to fit whatever works for the powers to be. We have become completely unaware of our God given senses and artistic capabilities to paint within this world the colors of true freedom and joy. Why can’t you want and desire to be something and someone different from who you were 2 years ago? Why doesn’t that work, why can’t you meet people from around the world, why has traveling the earth been made as luxury and not more affordable to the experience of life? Why can’t you wake up and just live and breathe in peace without a mission of labor and work to obtain the natural necessities of survival, i.e. clean water? Are these not our natural freedoms, our birth right to have a piece of land to farm our produce? These are Questions that I myself have relinquished out into the air waves to receive a higher meaning and purpose to be bestowed upon me. It seems that slavery of certain races of people became abolished, to then enslave the minds of the entirety of all people all races, and without force made the people to believe this arbitrary way of life. Somewhere between This and That the Sophisticated Woman sits.